Why Hello Summer! Im glad your Here :)

As summer has started, so has all the fun! :) Minus having to take math over the summmer... DOH! Lets catch up on how life has been this last month!

Kelly and I are still dating, and I am falling more in love with him every day! I have gotten to know his daughter more, and love to spend time with the two of them together. :) We went to the Bee's game on Mothers Day where I "met the parents" lol and it went well. His Parents seem very down to earth and I can see myself getting along well with them. This weekend we have alot of fun plans as it is Memorial Day Weekend! We are going to Wise Guys Saturday with some friends, and Then Crystal Hot Springs on Sunday, which should be a nice Daycation. :)

School, well is the same ol same ol. Pulled an A, A- and B+ last semester. Not my best, but it will do. This summer its Math 1010 again.... Poop. I am excited though to get my degree over with and see where life takes me from there.

Work is the same ol.... same ol... However, I did apply for a new position that I really want. If I get it I would still get to work with my team, but I would be an Oncology Patient Coordinator. My second interview is on Wednesday! GAH!

Family is good. Mom and Bryon just celebrated their 5th anniversary :) and Kira Graduated with her Bachelors. Mom is trying to get a new job, and Bryon is now working in the Bakery at Soelbergs.

This summer has alot going on! Birthdays Birthdays Birthdays! Weddings, Babies, Vacations! It will be fun packed and I am super excited about it! I will try to be better at keeping up with this and keep you all in the loop that is my life :)

Cady Really Liked The Blue Cotton Candy :)

<3

Me and Kelly!

She is so beautiful!

Ta Ta For Now!  Muah!

Life, as I know it NOW!

Man.... i am not very good at this whole writing here alot. Life is so AmAziNg right now. So, lets catch everyone up.

I am now living in Taylorsville, right next to shool which is conveinent. I am living with 5 other people! I am living with two of my good friends, Lance and Kristine, and my three new friends, James, Jessica, and Nean. It is so much nicer even though its harder finiancially, to live here again. Closer to work, closer to school, closer to my life. It takes alot of stressers away from me, and it makes me feel soo much better then living so far away. I do miss my mom, i definatly dont get to see her hardly anymore, and same with my shy bug. I am afraid that our relationship wont be the same since i am not around. But she is still as cute as ever.

Im going back to school... And its KILLING ME! lol. I am now into my 4th semester. And I am ready for a break... unfortunatly for me, I dont get one because I am re-taking math this summer. Its hard work, But I am learining alot of things that I am passionate about!

I am dating someone. I Met Kelly in January, and things with him just clicked. Once I met this handsome man of mine, I stopped looking. I have not felt afraid that things wont work, I am not doubting his feelings for me. Its just Amazing. I love him sooo so much! And I cannot wait to see where life takes us! We are planning a trip to San Diego in August, and I am pretty stoked about that! We are going to take his daughter, CadyAnn their for her 4th birthday!

Work Work Work Work is pretty much the same. Same stuff different day. Although we did move into the new space at the end of October. The new clinic is very nice. Small, but nice. I hope that it all goes smoothly, and that it does not cause any more stressors. Im hoping that leaving behind all the drama here, that work will be more enjoyable up there.

Little Nicole I have not been able to take her out alot lately, but we are planning a sleepover for friday, So I will try to post about it later!

So those are the main things in life that will catch you up to where i am now. I am going to try to write more consistantly which will help with details.

"You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something -- your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life." - Steve Jobs

Hump day... why do you hate me sooo!

Why why WHY is it only wednesday!!!
this week seems to be going by SOOOO SLLOOOWWW.... i keep thinking its thursday.. but nope! its not. its only Hump day... Sigh.... that means i still have one more day to go of my work week which i know will be hilaciously slow because my doc is not going to be here tomorrow... Bleck....
Oh Wellss...
SO! Here are my tentative plans for the rest of the week.. got a lot going on!
ThUrSdAy: Go to work, Get off work, go to dinner with some work buddies, then go see my friends band play at Burts Tiki lounge.. Then either stay in SLC or go home. Not sure yet.
On Friday i have my doctors appointment, to find out what my labs and ultra sound said. and what my labs said... so wish me luck....

Then i want to go buy a cute outfit for my friends birthday party... and i need some new jeans. Mine are all bleck...
So Saturday i will probably hang out with my buddy Kat :) (if she is not working) and then go to my friend Dre's birthday party.. Thus the new outfit.. she wants everyone to dress nice, Just to be fun and different. :)
Sunday i will probably relax.... and then Back to work on monday... BOOO

So needless to say... wont have alot of sit and be lazy time this weekend, but thats ok :)

Work Work Work...

Ahh… The dawn of a New Era in my work life… J
We have a little extern working here right now…. And if they decide to hire her, Then I will no longer have to work for GYN any longer…. I have just about Had it with that team and was almost to the point of quitting because I felt so unappreciated and so just ugh… I had worked pretty much by myself for 3 months while my co-worker was out on FMLA. SO she was back ONE day…. And the next week I came back into work to just get reamed and ripped to shreds by my employer. Saying that Dr. soisson was not happy with my work and that I was a horrible MA, and that I had a month to improve or I would not be able to work GYN anymore and my hours would be cut…. I pretty much lost it.. I was so angry… because 1st of all.. I have worked here for 2 years.. TWO YEARS! And not once had I EVER heard that Dr. soisson was not “pleased” with my work….. so its like! WTF where did THAT come from?!?!?! They told me that I was not getting pts in room on time and not stocking good enough… Well DUH.. again can I repeat myself?? No help.. THREE months…. I can only do so much by myself… So… anyway… None the less… I walked out of work that day… almost quit… Pretty much told my boss that if I was not needed I wanted to go home. I was so beyond livid…. So Later on that week I went in and talked to her once I had calmed down… and told her that I didn’t WANT to work for GYN anymore.. my thought process was why work for a doctor and for nurses that cant and wont respect me as a person. When I can work for Vicki (my breast team nurse) who absolutely adores me as a person and as a medical assistant.
I was promised that when the time came for budgets that I could be taken off the GyN team and moved over to work solely with Vicki. And now that we have the little Extern, I think they are talking about hiring her. And so 2 weeks ago they had me only work soisson for half a day then I went to work for my breast nurse.. Then Last week I did not working him at all J I am so excited!!! I think I will be WAY LESS stressed, and happier here…

i wrote this... and i kinda like it...

One of Those days



Today is one of those days
I have them from time to time
Where life feels SOO overwhelming
I just want to run and Hide.

Why cant i live in a fantasy land
Where all is right and good
And ignore all this reality
That consumes me like quicksand.

There is so much death and sickness here
too much for me to handle
So much is whirling in my head
Leaving me full of fear.

I am afraid of whats to come about
Afraid of facing facts
All this information surrounding me
just makes me want to ScReAm and ShOuT!

Today is one of ThOsE days
I have them from time to time.....

Sigh....

Whelps.... Alot has gone on the last few days in my life...
I went to the Doctor on friday to go over my CT scan.... Walked in there confident... walked out of there crushed...
I not only have one nodule now.. i have two.... i dont know what that means...but i have to go BACK to my pulmo and see if i need to have it Biopsied.... My PRimary Care doc doesnt want me to keep having CT scans. She doesnt think that it is healthy for me to keep having them when i am in child bearing Years....

And...... Now the part that really freaked me out...Also.. my CT scan showed some things on my liver and now my Pancreas.... and sooo much was thrown at me in one setting that it was alot to handle... I will let you know more when i know more... but its scaring me... i swear if its not one thing its another... Sigh... But i have to have an ultrasound done on tuesday.. and then i will see my doctor again on friday. ugh... So nervracking..

I had a blessing yesterday, and that has helped me ba calmer... but yeah... So i guess i will end this for now.. Happy Easter!

Ahh.... Good weekend.. not ready for it to be Over

Whelps! Not only did i do everything i set out to accomplish this week, but i got some nice little R&R and a new hair cut!!! :)

I went to see my old roomie on friday after my chiro appointment and decided to have her cut my hair the next day :) i was there for a REALLY long time. but its ok becuase she was new and had never done MY kind of hair cut yet. But she did a Great job! :) i am proud of her! She is going to hair school and is still learning... but she done good :) PLUS! i got 2 colors and a cut and wash and style for 60! how can you beat that!

Today we did easter a BIT early since the parentals are leaving me next week... So that was fun. We had good food and gave my neice shyleigh her easter basket which was fun :)

NOT ready to go back to work but oh well thats life :)

here are some pictures of my hair and my flower that i am getting much better at making :) More craft pictures will come :) my cross stitch is really coming along!!!

I am now watching did you hear about the morgans till i fall asleep... so goodnight friends and vast internet world!!! LOVES!

MaRy

My Neice Shy Shy
The Flower i made

My New Hair Cut

My New Hair Color!